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Now is also just a thought

I first read Eckhart's book in 2007 and had trouble with it. The power of now movement is strong and tolle's words seem so genuine. But I could never get why past and future were different from the now. I was misled that past and future are thoughts and the now isn't. Tolle may have said it but I missed it. Reality is that all tenses are composed of thoughts. The only and major difference about now is the physical experience. And that's all. So it is the now without thoughts about now, before or later that has the power to transform you. Wow...

Few insights have recently surfaced by drawing back to what is really felt by the body and mind like experiences and feelings. Other than tactile sensations including hearing, touch and smell, feelings are so tied into thoughts. It is pretty clear that fear and desires, the cornerstone of much of new age and Buddhism are also just thoughts spurred by a chain of other thoughts. Other than bodily addictions like overheating during…

The Old New Age

In every era, there is a wave of new age when truth stirs and touches the corpse. Corpses animate with this truth experience and try to convince other corpses of the truth so found. Usually spurred by a center of truth like Krishna, Buddha or Christ, soon this becomes the "new age" thinking of the time, not unlike what is happening now. Until "the corpse" decides that the new age experience was designed for it to help it have a better life. Get it? We are pretty close to making this new age stale.


So my Guru dumped me recently, recommending I lose the attraction to females and become more loyal.

I think there is a problem in having a Guru. It implies there is something she can do to help you find yourself. Guru is just a reminder of what you are forgetting. Dattatreya had 24 gurus like the tree, earth, birds and the ocean. I told one of my cousins once when he asked if I had a guru that he was my guru. So all of you remind me when I am off the path. I appoint all of you my Guru until of course someone reminds me that you are not really doing the job well.

Not that Guru G was wrong at all. I am attracted to the female form and anyone with a good idea or a u tube gets me into him or her.

Don't Take That Step

Descended from heavens
among the stars and the sky
With all heavenly attributes of
Peace, beauty and perfection.

Suddenly there it comes
The need to compare, to exceed
Desire to excel and penchant  to win.

All that remains of my heritage
Is a faint wistful memory.
A sense that something is missing
That once was  mine.

The terrible loss leaves me cold
Anger  takes hold, frustration anchors in me
Punishes me for that step I took
out of heaven into hell.

This same step I take every day
Every moment and with every thought.
I have become so good at this
Deluded to the core.

Intent was to make it better
Make heaven more heavenly
But how do you improve

You do not.
You ruin it.

And I did
Creating in the process
The hell I inhabit.

It is not too late
Never too late.
It is just a few steps back
To leave hell behind.

To see the fear as toothless
Greed unable to please
All seeming pleasures
But a flash in time.

But for heaven's sake
Just don't take that step
Out of ha…

You Have Already Won

Do you know how hard it is
to stand, run and do yoga on two feet?
to climb a mountain, to ride a bike
to do ballet and to simply stand?

Do you know how amazing it is
to know thousands of names
millions of images, billions of words
trillions of subtle feelings?

And even more, do you know
how incredibly complex it is
to recall any of the above
in an instant?

You can do all this,
I can do all this
we can all do all this.
Yet we want more.


It's a war we waged
on nature, on time
on creation
to conquer adversity.

the goal?
to do all of the above
impossible feats?

alas the winding is too tight
we are still fighting
just can't stop
this runaway train.

once in a while
One goes up to the mountain top
and screams out real loud
"You Have Already Won".

But we are still fighting.
sit still for a while
and listen to the message
the song, the love from the One.


On the eve of Guru Purnima, an ancient celebration of the guiding light also called the guru that leads one out of suffering. How to celebrate? There is only one action required; SURRENDER! Do you really know what that means and entails? Surrender means to give up the desire to win. You may even feel that you have lost. That is okay. Giving up the desire to win is absolutely the most difficult thing you would ever do. EVERYTHING in the physical universe is and continues to be wired to win. You won't be here trying to surrender if this was not so. That is the paradox. WINNING TAKES YOU TO A PLACE WHERE YOU MUST SURRENDER AND LOSE. May the guiding light make you lose and surrender.

My Long Trek

Happy birthday to me, you and you
For we were all born the same instant
Some fourteen billion years ago
In a sky entirely nonexistent.

Like you, I was but a tiny string
Of energy, oscillating, resonating.
Pushed by a colossal force
Of unimaginable strength
Forever outward bound into oblivion
Into a destiny unknown
With but just one instruction

Love I did, love I do
Finding kindred sizes and shapes.
I hugged you hard, squishing your bones
Until we turned into one.
One body, one soul.
Body I know, soul I do not.

Incarnated into rocks and energy
Water and gases filling the universe
Still following my only directive
Go, keep going, go with love.

Oops, I said
Accidentally spilling some carbon into water
Nitrogen into hydrogen and to amino acid.
Totally unintentional
Creating the building block
Of a true change to creation.

Sorry I said to whomever
Intended me to do nothing
Or do something else
Sorry, I gave life to life.

My present body still
Nothing but strings, albeit trillions

Error! Error! Error!

Did you see the star trek episode when the computer blows up screaming; error, error, error! when capt Kirk inputs an unanswerable koan? The real question now is who is planning to blow my mind up? Ramana is long gone and as far as I can tell my mind doesn't have a death wish? Perhaps it still carries the underlying desire to transcend the pain and suffering by blowing itself up. But we know better, as Bart Marshall said it once, "you can't game this, believe me I tried for decades". And check out gary's poem below, when he says " Lack of effort opens the gate for a flood of insights. * That which is changeless knows nothing." We really need to convince us not to ask this irreconcilable question.... Musings by Gary Harmon Emptiness filled with clanging, And dogs that bark in the distance. Winds that gently blow, Trees that sway to and fro, Are all connected. As am I joined to them. Nothing causing anything; All in agreement with all. * Turning ear…

Who Am I?

Is there any hope that this question can actually be answered? Who is asking this question? Is it an impostor asking itself if it is an impostor? Remember that koan; asking a liar if he is telling the truth? The question is a mind buster designed by Ramana Maharishi to just do that. All you can really hope for is eventually or now understand that. Cest ca cest tous.

Why bother with this new age mumbo jumbo?

For years, even decades I saw no reason to pay attention to spirituality even though I come from a highly spiritual family, country and culture. The individual and animal need to win and "succeed" is all that this body mind complex seemed to want. I came across many who tried to convince me to pay attention to the other side but I asked, why bother? You  may be asking the same. Let me try to answer this without the sales job of a door to door preacher.
In fact, there is no reason you should bother either. I hope things go so well for you like it does for a small fraction of humanity that you need not bother. This call from the inside seems to come particularly when one isn't able to keep up with the demands of this maya world and to what she calls "success". The first reaction of the animal body and mind complex, just like my cat when he is not allowed to go out, is to find another way. Keep trying; go around the wall, fool the detractors, win win win ... at any…


Well, not really.

If you fully understand the nature of your life you know that everything including what you may consider to be you is ephemeral. It is possible that there is something more or less than what you know but since you do not know it now, it's unlikely you would ever know. It will all change and eventually perish.

In fact the conventional wisdom of your body being the only thing that perishes may be wrong. Instead, something of your body will remain but in a different form. Nearly all of it will simply change and reincarnate onto a flower, another life or simply dust. But you as a person or spirit whatever you wish to identify yourself as, will disappear. To that who is asking the pointed question there is really no point in the quest. Particularly if you have been paying attention during your journey and finding that perishable is the nature of things.

It is impossible to have something without nothing. So here we are living as a thing but nearly all the heavy lift…

Diffusing Your Personal Charge

The YouTube clip below was very helpful to me. It is by Amira who is Tracy's mentor of years ago. I like her explanation about how our breath starts to become shallow as we age and as worries replace spontaneous play activity of our childhood. Try to meditate on why you are not breathing full and deep all the time and you will see what she means. I also like her explanation on how this accumulation of charges occur. Pain is the answer in one word. We are great at causing and hiding pain, each turning into a charge shortening our breath, our life and peace. Next, how to dump all these charges and set the little one free?

What is Oneness?

This is an age old question that one of my friends just asked me. I couldn't convince her that this is not a cult nor are they charlatans. We have been taken in so many times by the MBA's (my euphemism for all that is being sold to you by marketers) that is is impossible to tell the truth from a lie. I don't blame her nor you for being a skeptic. So am I.

But I do see things differently when it comes to spiritual matters. I follow what Buddha said thousands of years ago. Only follow what you can personally test it to be true. So what I have found to be true is that nothing is real, not Oneness nor Jesus nor Buddha. Only I am real. But all these peoples and things are manifestations which make it easy for me to crystallize my imaginations. Let's say I have within my imagination the White House but my human senses can only really see it if I can see a picture, a movie or the House itself. When I do see it I go, aha, that is it.

Oneness or Amma Bhagwan or Buddha are no d…


Earlier I had indicated the stories of two of our friends on how energy manifests withing their experiences during and after meditation. One related some more info to me which I detail here along with some of my commentary.

" It was interesting about energies and auras and all of  that.  I read the Celestine Prophecy awhile ago and it talked a lot about energy auras...I really was just looking for what seeing pink during  meditation meant, like I said I have always seen a bright colourful purple light that flows toward and away from me with each in and our breath.  But today I saw several colours...I also get that feeling of vibrating energy through my body during some of my meditations, not every time, but sometimes.  Perhaps I am finally opening up more of my chakras.

 I did a meditation for about 15 or 20 mins. today and I started seeing more colours than normal.  I typically always see bright I sawseveral, some even mixed together, I was getting a strong brigh…