The Golden Orb of Love

I first read Eckhart's book in 2007 and had trouble with it. The  power of now movement is strong and tolle's words seem so genuine. But I could never get why past and future were different from the now. I was misled that past and future are thoughts and the now isn't. Tolle may have said it but I missed it. Reality is that all tenses are composed of thoughts. The only and major difference about now is the physical experience. And that's all. So it is the now without thoughts about now, before or later that has the power to transform you. Wow... Few insights have recently surfaced by drawing back to what is really felt by the body and mind like experiences and feelings. Other than tactile sensations including hearing, touch and smell, feelings are so tied into thoughts. It is pretty clear that fear and desires, the cornerstone of much of new age and Buddhism are also just thoughts spurred by a chain of other thoughts. Other than bodily addictions like overheating du...

In every era, there is a wave of new age when truth stirs and touches the corpse. Corpses animate with this truth experience and try to convince other corpses of the truth so found. Usually spurred by a center of truth like Krishna, Buddha or Christ, soon this becomes the "new age" thinking of the time, not unlike what is happening now. Until "the corpse" decides that the new age experience was designed for it to help it have a better life. Get it? We are pretty close to making this new age stale.

So my Guru dumped me recently, recommending I lose the attraction to females and become more loyal. I think there is a problem in having a Guru. It implies there is something she can do to help you find yourself. Guru is just a reminder of what you are forgetting. Dattatreya had 24 gurus like the tree, earth, birds and the ocean. I told one of my cousins once when he asked if I had a guru that he was my guru. So all of you remind me when I am off the path. I appoint all of you my Guru until of course someone reminds me that you are not really doing the job well. Not that Guru G was wrong at all. I am attracted to the female form and anyone with a good idea or a u tube gets me into him or her.

Descended from heavens among the stars and the sky With all heavenly attributes of Peace, beauty and perfection. Suddenly there it comes The need to compare, to exceed Desire to excel and penchant  to win. All that remains of my heritage Is a faint wistful memory. A sense that something is missing That  once  was  mine. The terrible loss leaves me cold Anger  takes hold, frustration anchors in me Punishes me for that step I took out of heaven into hell. This same step I take every day Every moment and with every thought. I have become so good at this Deluded to the core. Intent was to make it better Make heaven more heavenly But how do you improve Perfection? Answer, You do not. You ruin it. And I did Creating in the process The hell I inhabit. It is not too late Never too late. It is just a few steps back To leave hell behind. To see the fear as toothless Greed unable to please All seeming pleasur...

Do you know how hard it is to stand, run and do yoga on two feet? to climb a mountain, to ride a bike to do ballet and to simply stand? Do you know how amazing it is to know thousands of names millions of images, billions of words trillions of subtle feelings? And even more, do you know how incredibly complex it is to recall any of the above in an instant? You can do all this, I can do all this we can all do all this. Yet we want more. Why? It's a war we waged on nature, on time on creation to conquer adversity. the goal? to do all of the above impossible feats? alas the winding is too tight we are still fighting just can't stop this runaway train. once in a while One goes up to the mountain top and screams out real loud "You Have Already Won". But we are still fighting. sit still for a while and listen to the message the song, the love from the One.

On the eve of Guru Purnima, an ancient celebration of the guiding light also called the guru that leads one out of suffering. How to celebrate? There is only one action required; SURRENDER! Do you really know what that means and entails? Surrender means to give up the desire to win. You may even feel that you have lost. That is okay. Giving up the desire to win is absolutely the most difficult thing you would ever do. EVERYTHING in the physical universe is and continues to be wired to win. You won't be here trying to surrender if this was not so. That is the paradox. WINNING TAKES YOU TO A PLACE WHERE YOU MUST SURRENDER AND LOSE. May the guiding light make you lose and surrender.

Happy birthday to me, you and you For we were all born the same instant Some fourteen billion years ago In a sky entirely nonexistent. Like you, I was but a tiny string Of energy, oscillating, resonating. Pushed by a colossal force Of unimaginable strength Forever outward bound into oblivion Into a destiny unknown With but just one instruction Love! Love I did, love I do Finding kindred sizes and shapes. I hugged you hard, squishing your bones Until we turned into one. One body, one soul. Body I know, soul I do not. Incarnated into rocks and energy Water and gases filling the universe Still following my only directive Go, keep going, go with love. Oops, I said Accidentally spilling some carbon into water Nitrogen into hydrogen and to amino acid. Totally unintentional Creating the building block Of a true change to creation. Sorry I said to whomever Intended me to do nothing Or do something else Sorry, I gave life to life. My present body still ...

Did you see the star trek episode when the computer blows up screaming; error, error, error! when capt Kirk inputs an unanswerable koan? The real question now is who is planning to blow my mind up? Ramana is long gone and as far as I can tell my mind doesn't have a death wish? Perhaps it still carries the underlying desire to transcend the pain and suffering by blowing itself up. But we know better, as Bart Marshall said it once, "you can't game this, believe me I tried for decades". And check out gary's poem below, when he says " Lack of effort opens the gate for a flood of insights. * That which is changeless knows nothing." We really need to convince us not to ask this irreconcilable question.... Musings by Gary Harmon Emptiness filled with clanging, And dogs that bark in the distance. Winds that gently blow, Trees that sway to and fro, Are all connected. As am I joined to them. Nothing causing anything; All in agreement with all. * Turning eart...

Is there any hope that this question can actually be answered? Who is asking this question? Is it an impostor asking itself if it is an impostor? Remember that koan; asking a liar if he is telling the truth? The question is a mind buster designed by Ramana Maharishi to just do that. All you can really hope for is eventually or now understand that. Cest ca cest tous.

For years, even decades I saw no reason to pay attention to spirituality even though I come from a highly spiritual family, country and culture. The individual and animal need to win and "succeed" is all that this body mind complex seemed to want. I came across many who tried to convince me to pay attention to the other side but I asked, why bother? You  may be asking the same. Let me try to answer this without the sales job of a door to door preacher. In fact, there is no reason you should bother either. I hope things go so well for you like it does for a small fraction of humanity that you need not bother. This call from the inside seems to come particularly when one isn't able to keep up with the demands of this maya world and to what she calls "success". The first reaction of the animal body and mind complex, just like my cat when he is not allowed to go out, is to find another way. Keep trying; go around the wall, fool the detractors, win win win ....

Well, not really. If you fully understand the nature of your life you know that everything including what you may consider to be you is ephemeral. It is possible that there is something more or less than what you know but since you do not know it now, it's unlikely you would ever know. It will all change and eventually perish. In fact the conventional wisdom of your body being the only thing that perishes may be wrong. Instead, something of your body will remain but in a different form. Nearly all of it will simply change and reincarnate onto a flower, another life or simply dust. But you as a person or spirit whatever you wish to identify yourself as, will disappear. To that who is asking the pointed question there is really no point in the quest. Particularly if you have been paying attention during your journey and finding that perishable is the nature of things. It is impossible to have something without nothing. So here we are living as a thing but nearly all the heav...

 The YouTube clip below was very helpful to me. It is by Amira who is Tracy's mentor of years ago. I like her explanation about how our breath starts to become shallow as we age and as worries replace spontaneous play activity of our childhood. Try to meditate on why you are not breathing full and deep all the time and you will see what she means. I also like her explanation on how this accumulation of charges occur. Pain is the answer in one word. We are great at causing and hiding pain, each turning into a charge shortening our breath, our life and peace. Next, how to dump all these charges and set the little one free? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ahgkJwJJOk&feature=youtube_gdata_player

This is an age old question that one of my friends just asked me. I couldn't convince her that this is not a cult nor are they charlatans. We have been taken in so many times by the MBA's (my euphemism for all that is being sold to you by marketers) that is is impossible to tell the truth from a lie. I don't blame her nor you for being a skeptic. So am I. But I do see things differently when it comes to spiritual matters. I follow what Buddha said thousands of years ago. Only follow what you can personally test it to be true. So what I have found to be true is that nothing is real, not Oneness nor Jesus nor Buddha. Only I am real. But all these peoples and things are manifestations which make it easy for me to crystallize my imaginations. Let's say I have within my imagination the White House but my human senses can only really see it if I can see a picture, a movie or the House itself. When I do see it I go, aha, that is it. O...

Earlier I had indicated the stories of two of our friends on how energy manifests withing their experiences during and after meditation. One related some more info to me which I detail here along with some of my commentary. " It was interesting about energies and auras and all of  that.  I read the Celestine Prophecy awhile ago and it talked a lot about energy auras...I really was just looking for what seeing pink during  meditation meant, like I said I have always seen a bright colourful purple light that flows toward and away from me with each in and our breath.  But today I saw several colours...I also get that feeling of vibrating energy through my body during some of my meditations, not every time, but sometimes.  Perhaps I am finally opening up more of my chakras.  I did a meditation for about 15 or 20 mins. today and I started seeing more colours than normal.  I typically always see bright purple...to...