I am very tired of me looking for that blissful state many arrived gurus and pretenders talk about. Kundalini masters wax and wane on the drug less highs. I am tired because I want it too, just like the only thing I ever wanted as a teenager was sex.
Then I started questioning how do these experienced masters describe this wow feeling. First of all I do not have any reference of this bliss by Buddha, Christ, Krishna, Nisargdatta or Ramana. Unless you want to reinterpret their words and see what isn't there. I am not being disrespectful to those who report of wild orgy like states, I call the feeling, spiritual orgasm. But I have only two choices at this point either keep pining for this like a prepubescent boy or try to explain why some get it others do not.
Do you recall any of your childhood ecstasies? Like the first time your bike and you actually stayed up, or the first time your hand brushed against a girl, any body part, or some exotic food you had for the first time; mine was a white chocolate mousse made by a master chef in Bruxelles. I think neuroscientists will tell you that we become an expert by forgetting the novelty of things. That's why driving is nowhere as much fun as it was the first time, in spite of you popping the clutch until dad almost smacked you.
Many describe this spiritual orgasm to be a process of forgetting conditioning and going back to a child like state. So it's not that you are not getting it. You are having an orgasm all the time, its just that you are paying no attention to it. But just know that it is yet another physical kick you are trying to get and has little to do with you finding god. It's yet another merry go around, be ecstatic, may be a few more times and then it's another experience and then it is over. How do you get close to feeling that first time biking experience? Don't do it for a few years. Getting back on the bike will feel so good.
Do you see now, why sensory deprivation like locking yourself in a cave or abstinence is part of the path? These are all mental gymnastics to make your blissful feeling come up from all the crap experiences and thoughts that clutter your mind. This is why yogis love shavasana; lie completely still after an intense yoga. Or like in one of poems ("don't take that step", check older posts), one move takes you out of heaven into hell. This is why mindfulness, a process of excluding all else but one experience works to bring you back home, back to your child like state. Go for it.
Then I started questioning how do these experienced masters describe this wow feeling. First of all I do not have any reference of this bliss by Buddha, Christ, Krishna, Nisargdatta or Ramana. Unless you want to reinterpret their words and see what isn't there. I am not being disrespectful to those who report of wild orgy like states, I call the feeling, spiritual orgasm. But I have only two choices at this point either keep pining for this like a prepubescent boy or try to explain why some get it others do not.
Do you recall any of your childhood ecstasies? Like the first time your bike and you actually stayed up, or the first time your hand brushed against a girl, any body part, or some exotic food you had for the first time; mine was a white chocolate mousse made by a master chef in Bruxelles. I think neuroscientists will tell you that we become an expert by forgetting the novelty of things. That's why driving is nowhere as much fun as it was the first time, in spite of you popping the clutch until dad almost smacked you.
Many describe this spiritual orgasm to be a process of forgetting conditioning and going back to a child like state. So it's not that you are not getting it. You are having an orgasm all the time, its just that you are paying no attention to it. But just know that it is yet another physical kick you are trying to get and has little to do with you finding god. It's yet another merry go around, be ecstatic, may be a few more times and then it's another experience and then it is over. How do you get close to feeling that first time biking experience? Don't do it for a few years. Getting back on the bike will feel so good.
Do you see now, why sensory deprivation like locking yourself in a cave or abstinence is part of the path? These are all mental gymnastics to make your blissful feeling come up from all the crap experiences and thoughts that clutter your mind. This is why yogis love shavasana; lie completely still after an intense yoga. Or like in one of poems ("don't take that step", check older posts), one move takes you out of heaven into hell. This is why mindfulness, a process of excluding all else but one experience works to bring you back home, back to your child like state. Go for it.
